Yesterday I had a simple epiphany. That wine and good company cure most things, definitely not tequila. Having wine with a long lost friend, I realized there were two broken hearts at the table. I think I’m not processing this Ph.D. situation well. I believe it is the simple fact that he just checked so many boxes for me. I feel like a fool in the midst of all of this. Like why am I crying and why did I let that poor man take me out last Thursday, big mistake.
So here is what happened. Super sweet, cute and seemingly smart guy. Met him on bumble. He asked me for drinks, my whole thought to this was sure why not and I need a drink since work is chaos. For my side of this we hit it off, I mean we were there til 10 pm. Right but oh so wrong, one crucial mistake. We were talking about signs that the universe throws out at you. Most you know that is kinda a sore subject for me. The next second, I kid you not, tears were coming out of my eyes!! I just started laughing when I realized what was happening. Never have I ever done that, date one or 15. I am sure that totally killed any chance I had with this guy. He did, however, kiss me at the end of the night when we nearly shut down the restaurant. Well if he potentially reads this, which he actually might. I’m so sorry, for the most part, I am normal, just having out of the ordinary life situations at the moment. I feel like that was definitely not my best, and borderline mortified.
So back to last night, inquisitive minds do want to know. If you have a girl that is smart, can carry a conversation. Doesn’t pressure you, laid back, cares for you. Why let her go? If everything is going great enough for you to send that morning text, every morning, why are you self-hijacking the relationship? News flash men, it is dumb not easier to destroy what you have cultivated for months. In my many years of dating, and yes I think I have been boy crazy since preschool, I just don’t get this. I know I’m not asking for a ring, and neither was my friend. If what you want is someone who is demanding and itchy, by all means just don’t date us at all. Do not waste your time nor ours. Well, that is literally all the time I have for this. Today my kid got into charter school and oh yeah they go back on Monday. So I have 3 fewer days to get him ready, this should be fun.
XOXO
Ana
Everyday Banana 