The Unravelment

I feel like everything is starting to unravel, well and it was overdue. This is all financially speaking. For once the other side of my life is semi-under control. This is definitely one of  those topics you don’t tend to discuss in public. You definitely keep it off the dining room table, nor do you consult friends about. Money is what makes the world go around, and also the lack of stops everything on a dime. How many wars and battle thru history were fought over this concept. Money equals stability, control, and power. Even in the modern era, if you have plenty of it, you have your shit together.

Well needless to say I was doing pretty good there for a while. Had my shit together, but then I had surgery and I was out for three weeks from work. That dwindled the savings I had over the last couple months. I even gave up my trip to ACL thinking that would solve issues. Well yester after examining the situation, I have had to do the hardest thing I’ve had to do. Cancel my trip to California to see one of the great ones get married. I just didn’t have the money for getting to the hotel and back to the airport. Nevermind the hotel expenditure. I feel awful, especially knowing what goes into planning and executing a wedding.

What else could I possible do. After not getting money that I depended on from my parents and being on leave. The only miracle that I need is an accidental giant check  deposited in my bank account. Well or the winning numbers for the lottery. The only thing that I could possibly pray on that happens, is that my ex-agrees to buy me out of the house. That or the ex-hockey player decides he wants to be my sugar daddy and pay all my bills. Let’s face it, there is a slim chance of anything right now, to be honest. So I am open to suggestions. I can’t switch jobs due to my hours, and the responsibilities I have with my kid. I don’t want to sell anything. I have too much going on already with school. So please if you want to donate to a worthy cause, or find me a sugar daddy. By all means, go ahead!! For now, I leave you to take care of the adulting I haven’t done since I’ve been hard at work on school work.

XOXO

Ana