So many words running thru my mind. So many thoughts there too. It is funny the cards that life plays us. We think we are going upstream but yet it is more like down-stream. We think things are amazing on paper but in the flesh it is all a shamble. When new people come into our lives, I have a firm believe, they think less of us. Whether is fragile, dumb, incompetent, whatever it may be. They are the better of the species, Oh the assumption. The reality is that most of the time it is the opposite. They are just compensating for whatever they lack. We know this, Yet they hit us right in the shins, even though we try and be strong, with self doubt. What is even worse is the allowance of such behavior.

At what point do we say enough. At what point is enough enough. At the beginning, middle or  when it is too late to save anything. The lesson in all of this, is to always be kind. Always know that your actions speak louder than your words, and sometimes you hurt more than you heal.

I’ve hit the ultimate dry spell. Yes people that’s right, I’m not getting laid. It’s been months. So why not continue and just focus on myself. Why not, I can be selfish. So I have made the decision that all of June I’m detoxing. No alcohol, no soda, no energy drinks, no coffee. Only my detox tea and water and working out will be a priority. That should be the real stunner. Me working out … that’s laughable. Well something good has to come out of this, at least shed the extra pounds that i’ve put on over the years. You would think that my crazy IBS would keep that to a minimum, oh the lies!

So not a whole lot has been going on. Just working and being good staying home the last couple weekends. Probably for the best since I seem to have gotten sprayed with boy repellant. It is at least keeping my ego from being tortured by just watching Amazon/Netflix and drinking wine at home. I am however excited about the next coming weekends. Plenty of time off from work, Memorial Day weekend of fun and then Free Press. So really all I hear is lots of music and dancing, two of my favorite things.

Talking about favorite things, traveling! Already have California in October booked – someone’s WEDDING – and looking to plan a Colombian adventure in the Winter. My friend was talking about it with me the other day. So I think regardless of who goes, I think I’m going to go. Armenia, Cartagena, Santa Marta, San Andres sound like an amazing vacation. Between now and then i’ll just have to suck it up and make the best of this concrete jungle.

On thing I do have to send a shout out for is my friends new amazing project. It is called PL&Y – Peace Love and Yoga. Every saturday in midtown at Irish Cowboy, Yoga  and they raise funds for charity! Plus there is an amazing DJ and kick as instructors. Trust me, I am sore as hell today. So go check them out and it is for a good cause!

XOXO

Ana

Today I’m going on a 36+ hour migraine only to take it to work probably for the next two days. It just reminds me how quickly things change. How fragile I really am. How something that can’t be tangible, can be so debilitating. Aches and pains, of all kinds are objective. No one truly knows, other than the person who feels it. Those on the other side can only speculate how bad your pain is.

Last weekend was interesting, to say the least. Went on a girls lunch Saturday after lounging by the pool in the AM. Went to a really cool new place in midtown called Stoked Tacos and Tequila. Food, drinks and decor meet my besties and my approval. Basically if you haven’t been run over there. .  now!
A fun afternoon led to no nap and going to work all weekend. Where I, in true Ana fashion because I can’t have anything nice, single handedly destroyed something I had kept cool about for weeks. I blame the fact that I let the situation make me happy and excited. Didn’t make it any better in the morning when I got drunk and slightly bitchy. Oh well another one bites the dust. Tuesday, I got my hair done and I got dressed up for DISCLOSURE. What can I say, it was pretty freaking amazing! I haven’t had that moment since Dash at Ministry last August.

To make up for a non existent Mother’s Day this year, I took spawn to Intrude last night. Its an art installation on the lawn around the Chevron building downtown, Giant bunnies on a lawn. Then we went for pizza and ice cream at Dolce Vita. He must be the coolest kid ever, dining and hanging out on all the cool patios.

XOXO
Ana