Kingdom of Heaven, what a great movie, and yes I am having a very medieval day. One f my favorite movies, if you haven’t seen it you should. What brought this on? Well, I am super nerdy watching this castle show I found on Netflix. Yes, a show all about Brittish castles and their history and mysteries.  This sort of thing just makes me wonder, how amazing would it had been in them, of course during peace time. How amazing these structures have become over the years. It also makes me hungry for another trip to the UK. I would love to be there for several weeks to see the whole country. Bucket list for sure. I would be a journey of a lifetime for me, you know all the historic nerdy things I like.  Above the love of art, is my love just central European history. Just like my love for Boston, is my new love for London. If I had it my way, I would reside at either. So many things to learn and explore.

It is interesting how the things that bothered people them are the same as today. It was all about love and war. Naturally, over time the two have been watered down to all the social issues we have today. Which is why learning history is so unbelievably important. You need to be able to learn from the past since you cannot change it. It also has a dark angle, which is to repeat itself. I am a believer, that those who don’t learn from it parish. Just take a look at the political and social problems of today. Although we have evolved as a species, we are still prehistoric in certain realms of life. I do believe in the best in people, as long as they use their head correctly. This is probably the only political statement I will ever make, I wish those in power would learn from the ones from the past. Learn to humble themselves and have the real best intention of those they oath to protect.

I fear that we no longer can protect even things in our own home, in our own heart. As time has given us infinite possibilities, we have lost others. I blame the internet for such endeavors. We have unlimited opportunities for learning, teaching, and sharing. Concisely it has also given us the demeaning, online dating. One of the best and worst things that have happened to me, to say the least. I guess in better terms, it has given me lessons, Lessons of trust, love and personal growth. One thing that I am truly grateful for is my new man (which yes I met online) and this, literally the ability to write the things that I am able to. It brings me immense amounts of joy that people in other places can read this blog and know you are not alone. What you are going thru is what so many people are going thru also.

Til next time…

XOXO

Ana

 

Ps Cheers to the best month ever!

I feel very Carried Bradshaw today. Pondering the things life has thrown at me lately. I can definitely say it has not been a stellar week. Between not seeing spawn, nor hearing from him all week. To this financial crisis/ lack of work issue, which is kinda getting out of control. To wanting to spend time with the new man in my life, but not really being able to.

Does love really ever win? In the lives we live today, you know the one that you have no time for anyone – that one. I even recently saw a post on Facebook about a friend having to schedule phone calls with her friend. I simply do not understand where society is going. If your family, friends, and lovers cannot make time for their counterparts – what are we all doing. Have we only to become an introverted society where we long for one another but yet want to do nothing with actually achieving this. I can’t even wrap my brain around it. Considering I am very black and white when I do things. Is it a yes or a no. Life can’t be truly live on the border of uncertainty.  All that comes of this is the unrequired stress of the what if, or the should I. Sadly those who don’t want this, end up just cutting their losses. I have does this with many friendships, unfortunately. If you don’t want to spend time with me and you don’t talk to me, what choice do I really have? Same goes with romantic relationships if you don’t want to inventest you can’t expect the dividends.

So how can we possibly come out of this, when we are all driven my social media and hide behind our computers, phones, and excuses. What will be the breaking point, or will someone just shut everything down putting the world in a blackout. Then the funny thing will be, how will Millenials survive. If text message and DM’s would work anymore would people be more forward with their intentions since they would have to actually verbalize them? Who knows, we might never know now says the pessimistic side of me. The hopeful side says that one day everything will be okay. That those who you care about realize what they have and will work on saving and nurturing what is.  Until then I guess all we can do is have patience.

XOXO

Ana

PS But I am rooting for Love, it is the essence of life.

 

I know, I keep dropping the ball on writing. I really shouldn’t make excuses for it, but for some reason, there are not enough hours. Granted I am on month three of not working and you would think I have plenty of time. Literally, I don’t know where it goes. Between running errands, being a mom and job hunting, it is all a bit consuming. Plus there has also been plenty of juiciness, the good and bad kind.

Let’s see what has happened the last two months…  a lot, now where to start. April for some funny reason was spent a lot doing self-reflection and hanging out with my kid. I went to a FrontRow event at Spire which was fun. I did try to be fit, which that is a laughable matter. If you know me, you know how much I hate working out. As a follow-up to the last post, yes I went to SOUL-Cycle, and I nearly died. It is crazy good, and I was sore for like five days. Which I guess were two good things, but not when you are fixing to go on vacation with someone. Yep, that is right, BritBoy and I planned a trip to LA. Bought plane tickets, set up the hotel, and then he became distant. I am talking like he wouldn’t text me unless I would text him. At one point I didn’t hear from him for over ten days.  I knew something was up and my instincts were right. Although LA was beautiful – and I got to see one of my favorite people, and Malibu was fantastic – went to Calamigos Ranch, he spent most of the time bickering at me. Then for the last night there he came out with a bang, yelling and screaming at me in the middle of Beverly Hills. Yes, I broke it off with him at the hotel, didn’t even go to the airport with him. Thank God, again, for good friends who no matter what come get you from the airport in the middle of the night! So yea that was that, the charming Brit became a complete jerk. He apparently was looking for an excuse, and well I wasn’t going to put up with that. Frankly his loss, not mine. The one thing I have definitely learned in this life is that if someone is going to try and walk all over you, you need to say “Bye Felicia.” I do not have the time and patience for that kind of relationship or friendship.

After that crazy trip, May brought all good things. My adorable friend opened up his business to the public. So if you read this and you have dogs you need to check out Wag’n World, it is a dogs paradise. Major props to him for going out on a ledge to do what his heart wanted him to do, and it shows how awesome the place is. I went to see the XX when they were in town. The show was fantastic and before hand when I went to the Fish. There some random man paid for my meal, to this kind stranger – Thanks!. The FrontRow event that I was able to check out was a class at the super awesome gym, Equinox. This super high-end gym is in the middle of the lux River Oaks District, which I love. The class kicked my butt, and the eye candy was good too. I did get some girl time here and there before focusing back to family time. Mothers day tea and Mothers day were so special with my little man. He really is the best part of every day that I’ve been unemployed. He really makes everything ok.  Then he decided to graduate pre-K and be a big kid. He even told me the other day that he wants to give up his bottle for his birthday. I also got a good family trip to Austin for my sisters UT graduation. I must say, even though I have only been a partial student of the burnt orange and white, I absolutely love that school. If only I could finish my second degree from there, that would be a dream come true. Going to school commencement Saturday night solidified that, I am still getting goosebumps. Only time will tell if that will be able to happen for me, I am praying and crossing my fingers for it.

In true Banana style, I have met someone new. Let me tell you, It has been so hard to not get too excited about him. Talking to one of my friends just last week, he checks a lot of boxes, we are talking about more than I can count. All I will divulge is that he has a Ph.D., super sweet, and he ligitimate cares about as far as I can tell. As far as work, I am crossing my fingers for the divine intervention. Things have been moving slow, and I am still trying to be super positive. All I can say is pray for me – this month is going to be a tuff one, I am , and I really want the two. The awesome job and the amazing man.

Goodnight for now!

XOXO

Ana