If you are just now coming and checking out my blog, it is my version of an open diary. Only a single girl and her sometimes outrageous dating stories, yes no one could make this stuff up, and sometimes about just what is going on in my life. So my last post I started recapping the previous year. It was a tumultuous one, and I write about these things to vent primarily. Somewhere in the inner workings on my brain, to maybe be of support for someone else who is going thru the same. Sometimes it is nice to find someone in your same jam. You may not know them, but it’s somewhat comforting.
So, the story continues my last post.
The Guy – So to fix this cliff hanger now that you know what happened with my parents. There was a period of a good three weeks that they had to stay with me. Therefore he couldn’t come over. He stopped responding to my text and phone calls. Mind you this guy had a key to my place. So I am not new to someone ghosting me, totally knew it was happening. About the end of September, he starts writing me out of the blue messages. No “hi” or “hey” not even “hello.” I am sorry, but I was going to fall for that breadcrumbing. Like you made a choice, I am not going to let you snake back into my life. He ended up dropping off my key and personal items at my leasing office, needless to say, I was super embarrassed. Thur this whole this it became genuine to me that he was just using me out of convenience, and when I had to take care of my family, that was his exit. Which intern left me feeling absolutely low. I spent many weeks after my parents left, crying my self to sleep. I am sure I could have called a friend, and looking back I should have. I was talking to an acquaintance about it the other day, and I started thinking that this attitude men have about dating in today’s world, must be having some kind of effect on our mental health. It is downright toxic. Now im not saying men are the only ones that do this, but in my experience, they have done it a lot.
But for now, I am really just taking care of self. Yep, that’s right no dating sites for me this year. That is a resolution I have made. They are just draining my spirit, and I have no place for it. I am joining my good friend in this yoga challenge, 40 days at a studio here in Houston called Big Power. So, in other words, I should look amazing by March! and better yet a more clear and fresh metal perspective. There are lots of goals this year, most of it is loving my self more and letting others fall at the waist side. Being healthy and happy basically.
XOXO
Ana
Everyday Banana 