Convenience

Every year my family goes to night Christmas service, its a tradition. Whether we go to the West campus or at Woodway, it is the one thing we do as a family. This year had a lot of the same bells and whistles.  The sermon struck a chord with me, it was the lesson that I’ve learned over the year. If you have relationships of convenience, you are doing it wrong. Relationship wheater they are romantic or not, should not be of comfort. I know so many people that do that. They keep in the same stagnant situation, but they don’t want to change. Well, the change comes eventually. 

As this year horrible year comes to an end, I am more than happy to be sitting at home alone. Yes, I know others may think – how pathetic, but I thought about it, and it’s really not that bad. I get to hang out with the one thing that cuddled me all year. Collected my tears, and never judged me. Binged watched Netflix with me and threw everything it was always there at the end of the day. This is – my bed. I couldn’t think of a better way to start a new year. Comfy, warm and not having to wonder about drinking and driving or that single girl midnight kiss. 

I do have goals for this coming year. I am keeping them to a minimum, and I am going to hold myself accountable on a daily basis. I determined to look and feel the best this year, and I am starting with my health. I already have my meal replacement shake on the counter, I ordered it from Cute Nutrition, and for what I can tell – it’s not going to be that bad. I am also going to take after a friend of mine, and I am going to do 2018 miles this year. To get my mind going, I am going back to school this semester. I am hoping by doing all of this that everything else will follow. 

I am just praying for a good year. A good year not only physically but mentally. With lots of love and beautiful friendships.  For God to continue to bless me, even though I struggle. In the end, it will be the little bit of growth that will get me thru the year. Thank you to all who have supported me, hung out with me, or just sent me a text to check in, it has all been appreciated. May your year be as fantastic as your heart is. Hello, 2018!

XOXO

Ana