Reflection

After my lousy thanksgiving continued to ruin last week for me, I spent a lot of time reflecting on the awful year this has been. I know I’m not the only one in these shoes, but this is my soapbox, and I will stand on it. With Christmas being around the corner and the end of this shitty year, I am totally over it and looking forward to the fresh chapter the new year brings. Well, LET’S RECAP!

Well, it all started with my English-ex canceling holiday plans with me, I was going to jump the pond for my birthday. To then who I thought was basically my sister entirely betraying me and lying to me. She had been lying to so many for so long that it was a matter of time before I was the next target. Taking a step back, all the red lights were there. That followed with being unemployed for four months, and when you are a single mom – that was the worst thing. It literally started a horrible financial domino effect for me. Lets not even get into all of my health problems and inability to take care of them. Mind you I haven’t yet gotten into all the heartbreak I’ve had this year.

From that, I have learned not to date anyone if their name is A****w, R****t, or J****n. Lord and probably not an Aquarius or Sagittarius, need to formulate a repellant for those, like whats your name and when is your birthday formulary. I have most certainly walked away from a lot, pat myself on the back for that. I have also learned about people that I used to call my ‘friend.’ That is such a loose term nowadays, think about it. Who are your IRL friends? If you needed to be bailed out of jail who would come save you? And who would just gossip about it? I am pretty confident that the original number you thought of, would condense only the amount of fingers both of your hands or less.

I am however very thankful for my parents, who have saved me more than once this year. For the friendships I do have, new or old, you know who you are, and you are terrific, and I love you, thank you for being in my corner when I needed you the most. Most of all, even though yes I am still single, I am thankful for the men that roll thru. You have at least taught/showed me something about myself that I didn’t know before. If I didn’t learn from it, what good was it?

XOXO

Ana