Well, foks is that time of year again, cuffing season, aka Single Awareness. You that time of year when it seems everyone and their mom gets a boyfriend. The weather gets cooler and the sun goes down earlier. It is also the time of year that makes feel even more single. Thank you to the art of social media, and everyone posting about their new man, ring and since I’m old AF – their newborns. Don’t get me wrong, I love babies – just the influx makes my uterus cry. All of this, of course, is even more apparent after the last series of letdowns. Go figure.
October was pretty great for the most part. If you know me you know how much I like baseball, and October is prime time for it. Even more exciting was finding someone who enjoyed it as much as I do. And I don’t know if I say this enough here, but my “teams” are from another state, I literally live in the wrong state. He loved the Patriots as much as I do, so the two hour long conversations on the phone were an easy thing to do. So being able to have a date night and watch baseball playoffs was amazing. But again my horrible luck will have it that I would be the one losing this game, at least the Astros were able to bring home the World Series.
The dating game is absolutely killing me. Meeting men that are not emotionally available, who really don’t want to meet you or don’t know what they really want, is draining me to the core. It is literally exhausting. Signing up for match.com was probably the worst thing I have ever done. It has brought me so much stress and grief that I’m really thinking about canceling and hoping I get some money back. I don’t think I will ever understand why they are even on there. For now, I think I’m going to have to take a serious break from all of this BS. I need to spend my time doing constructive things, than wasting time on people who genuinely don’t care about me and my needs. Here is to starting my NYE resolutions early, and I am most def going to be proactive at this. Me time here we go!
XOXO
Ana
Everyday Banana 